there are certain songs that slice their way into your anatomy as devotedly as shrapnel. “lived in bars” is one of those songs. i’ve imitated chan’s husky spirit-beaten voice more times than i can remember, on bike rides to the beach and up mountains, over the kitchen sink washing the dishes a murky swirl being sucked down the drain, slow dancing with boys in their unfamiliar, disordered bedrooms, slow dancing with myself in the dark of my closet, and of course in bars. suffice it to say, these words and chords have hitched a spiraling ride on my dna. so it’s surprising that i’m just now seeing this music video for the very first time. it’s everything i needed it to be. sometimes, you don’t find something until you’re truly ready for it.
